The last month has been especially challenging for us. Arnold has decided to go on a food strike, turning his button nose up at everything I offer him! So, today I went shopping bought every flavor of baby food I could find on the supermarket shelf - If I am lucky perhaps will will find something that he will take his fancy. I feel really hopeless when I am unable to nourish my son.
This brings me to sleep or the lack there of it. For over a month now Arnold has decided that 4:30am is the best time to start his day and so far everything I have tried has failed miserably.
So, on Monday morning at 4:00am I heard Arnold awake in his cot... I felt my eyes well up from exhaustion. I tried to will him back to sleep for the next two hours before calling in reinforcements... My husband. He got up with Arnold and left me to go back to sleep for the next few hours. Without sleep I feel insecure about my performance as a mother... "Why can't I get my baby to sleep?" or "What am I doing wrong?"!!! Just terrible what you can put yourself through. And trying to complete UNI assessments around this has just been impossible!
I am however happy to report that Arnold did sleep till 6:00am this morning, even though he did stir at 4:30am he went peacefully back to sleep. A small piece of heaven was felt in the Wettstein house. Perhaps that extra bottle did the trick!
It is amazing how much better you can feel with a couple of hours sleep under your belt.
Still, I ordered "Save our sleep" by Tizzy Hall, hoping to find some answers or possible solutions! So wish me luck and I hope I have some good sleep filled night ahead x
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