This momentous year saw the birth of my first child. I still look into his soft hazel eyes amazed that my husband and I created life. It is a funny thing that happens to parents or carers when a baby smiles and giggles... the sleepless nights, the anxiety, the worry and your frantic internal dialogue, just disappears - even if for just a second and that makes it all worth while to me.
Don't get me wrong, some days it is all too much and I have to cry it on out. I am ever so unbelievably grateful to my Husband who may not always know the right or best thing to say, but knows how to hold me close and how to make me smile.
I lost a best friend. Four little paws and a gleeful wagging tail that is nestled in to every inch of my heart. I know there will be a time when we shall see each other again my dearest.
I also learned that it is totally okay to not be able to do everything at once. There are no metals or awards given out each year for people who do this. And if there is I apologize to this years recipient.
This year being a mum has made me look at my Mother with new eyes and heightened respect. I apologized to her for those, um, teenage years...
This year I struggled to understand how horrible things can be allowed to happen to such beautiful, caring, warm and most lovable people in my life. They say everything happens for a reason and I have to trust in that or lose hope.
I learned that each day brings with it new challenges and how you deal with them shows your strength in character.
Most of all I learned that the Beatles were right "All you need is love".
Happy New Year!
xoxo
